Rejection

It was the first time I felt rejection and it affected me badly. It made me feel that I can no longer be myself. It made me feel that there is no "Leader In Me."

Maybe I was 'too-over-confident?' or maybe I was too cocky about it. I can never relate my past to my future. I mean my experiences are supposed to help me build up my future. Like how I had such leadership experiences and yet it failed on the second level. So how am I going to have that confidence that it would not fail again if I were to be in the same interview but seeking for a higher position in the work industry?

I don't know what's up with me already. I have to learn a lesson. A lesson that I need to realise that things just can't go the way that I want to. And if it failed on me, I have to also learn to accept it and grow from that. No use mourning over it and just give up like that right? Maybe there's other platform. But where? But what? And how?

How am I supposed to identify my other skills or talents? For the past years, I've been living a life committing to a leadership role. Never have I tried something new. I am 'Fear of the Unknown.' Leadership was a passion, it grew since young. I love to be the voice for the students and I love to lead a huge group. I can't, I can't imagine it to be the other way round. What other talent or skills do I have? Sigh.