Happiness

Happiness. 

How do we actually define happiness? What actually make us happy? Does it really make us happy? 

I find happiness really important for me. Really. I'll cherish my day whenever I am feeling happy. Wait, who doesn't right? :-)

But anyways, thank Allah that I have been feeling happiness that I have yet to feel for a very long time. Seeing others happy that I am happy really makes me feel *aahhh* :-) 

I know right :'-) It took me really so long to feel this happy. When I'm typing this, I even feel happy. CRAZY ENOUGH? I know. 

Like I've said earlier, I wasn't happy back then. I may look like I'm smiling in the outside, but I felt total darkness, loneliness and just not right. *Sigh* but nah, it's okay, life is simple, let's not mourn about the past.

MY PAST SUCKS - smoked, broke my parents' heart, did something that I should not have done, hurt myself, hurt people, suicidal thoughts, cuts and cuts, failures over failures.. but life is challenging.

He loves us, no matter what He'll be waiting for us to come back to Him and seek for guidance and of course forgiveness. AND ALSO happiness. (Thank You <3) 

Anyways, lets put that aside. Ever wonder why am I so happy? Or like, I felt happiness like almost every time? hehehehhehehehehehehhehehe  *well i wish i could like insert an emoji here, the shy shy one*

Remember I shared about A? ok yes. One of the reason for my happiness. Funny how our friendship grew to something special and interesting. Well, I think its no longer a friendship? But it is really something special now. That I can't..I just can't stop thinking about A. Ah, I bet you guys know what I'm trying to say here. 

It is really interesting.. because it has been long time since I felt this way. Really. What way actually? I am actually feeling the true happiness within me :-) *I am typing and smiling. gila* 

Okay la that's enough of sharing, I'll do my best to blog often. Till next time!!!!

p.s I'm happy that I'm left with one paper! THEN HOLIDAYS!
p.p.s I'm happy that I am in love with him :-)))))))))))
p.p.p.s I'm happy that I have not been hurting my parents lately! (In progress to become a good daughter and sister heh)