You're my closest friend

His name is Hans Edzra

Hi..

February just started and I blew it up.

I just screw things up. Simple things can be solved just by talking and yet I chose to ignore and rolled my eyes at you. I chose to be angry and punched the wall and let you be angry at me for being so rude to you.

I am really sorry for what I have done. At the same time, Hans, you should have known what you did wrong too. You left me hanging with a huge load of work left to do. You know we're supposed to do this as a team.

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I am always aiming for quality work despite how important the work is. I simply can't accept team mates that says things like "Just do anyhow," "Just depend on 6th P," "this work means nothing much," and etc. I grew up treating every tasks assigned as the first and the last. Hence, I will do my best at everything. This is when you become disciplined, have commitment and shape your leadership skills.

A question I always asked myself, "Why is there still people out there not treating their school work seriously?"

Thus, today I raged. I felt the entire work load was on me. I was so stressed up and yet my members tell me to chill?

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Whatever happened today, let it be a lesson - communicate and never leave anyone behind. At the same time, learn to have self-control.

Don't be so egoistic until you're that close to losing someone that you truly cherish.

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Here's a message for you, Hans.

I am really sorry. I know I should have self-control. I should not have just ignored you and walked away. I just could not stand the way you treat things - your school work especially.

I am already feeling rusty with you. And I do not really want this.

All I want is to have a friendship with you that people will get jealous of. We were really good at the start. Sigh.

I don't want to lose you. (I might say this line too much.) But you're special Hans.

It doesn't sound convincing but trust me, I cherished you from the start.

Oh no, don't get me wrong, I am not into you. I just want to keep you forever.

You can be the most shittiest friend I know but at the same time... you're great.

Sincerely,
Mursalina

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"..if you are able to influence their attitude to be more serious and put in more effort... You essentially help to shape them into a better person too." - Jun Ping