What is happening?

"Is everything alright? You seemed more and more reserved by the week. I hardly see you smile or active in class anymore. The bubbliness in you is slowly seeping away. Unlike before, I hardly hear much from you during class discussions." - Pam

Hello

It is a new month and things haven't been good for me lately. Then I thought to myself, why are things happening this way? What am I supposed to hope in the future? Will things get brighter?

I've shared that January has been a lot of downs. I rarely feel great.

Maybe it is just the start of the year.

Maybe it is something that He is trying to show me.

Maybe I haven't been going at the right track  that is why all this challenges are popping up for me.

Honestly I am scared.

You read what Pam said for my class performance? I don't know where am I heading to. Maybe some things aren't meant for me.

Actually, I don't know la.