Ya Nabi Muhammad s.a.w

Bila azan Maghrib berkumandang, pada saat itu la Nabi Muhammad s.a.w dilahirkan, dibawakan ke bumi ini. 

Tonight I went to Majlis Cinta Rasul after so long (I repeat, after so long). I went with an open heart, nawaittu yang baik supaya I get to share my love towards our Prophet Muhammad. 

I cried. I cried out loud with the rest of kaum Muslimah around me. 

17 years of living, I have gain a lot of sin. I am a sinner. I wasn't either a good daughter, a good student or a good friend. And especially to Allah, I wasn't a good hamba to Him. 

Disini, di malam ini, pada waktu ini, aku telah banyak berdosa. Engkau, ampunkanlah dosa-dosa ku, ampunkanlah dosa-dosa kedua ibu dan ayah ku, engkau ampunkanlah dosa-dosa adik ku, Ya Allah. 

Kau tetapkanlah ibu dan ayah ku ditempat hamba yang mulia, hamba yang soleh dan solehah. Sesungguhnya Engkaulah yang maha berkuasa. 

When both of my palms were raised, to selawat atas Nabi Muhammad s.a.w, I cried a lot. Indeed our prophet have yet to see us, but he gave the utmost love to us. But we failed to do so. Indeed our prophet have yet to know us, he felt the pain first before all of us feel pain, hunger and sadness. 

O Allah, all I ask now, is to be a good Muslimah. A good student. A good friend. A good sister to my younger brother. And lastly, a good daughter to both of my parents. 

O Allah, guide me. Bring me closer to Prophet Muhammad s.a.w. Provide me with love towards our prophet like how he always do to his ummah. 

O Allah, I may not be my utmost best attitude, I may not be pleasing you as my Creator. But O Allah, guide me. 

Insya Allah. :-)